Tuesday, December 26, 2006

It's been a while.

I was taking cymbalta (an anti-depressant) for a year. Now since I quit taking it I find myself on an emotinal roller-coaster. I cry like a girl. And I'm angrier than I've been in a while. I don't know if it's my imagination or not but I can't help but wonder if the drug controlled all my emotions for a year and now that I quit, everything I didn't feel for a year is now coming out.
Including horniness. The last time I felt this horny was when I was pregnant with my baby and my now ex-husband refused to have any form of sex with me because I was too "fat" (I've never been what most people consider fat but since I looked anorexic when we got married it must have seemed fat to him).
What to do with this? What to do?
I signed up for Jenna on dishnetwork, masturbate almost everyday, signed up with a ladies only sex website , joined some adult googlegroups, but none of it takes the place of dick. Not my dildo, not my fingers, not Mr Shower Massage, nothing.
So what's next? And where did my fuck friend go?
Back to fantasizing, I guess.
More to cum.

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