Confused

Reality--I am having an identity crisis. Am I a cum-slut 'ho, which I think I might want to be? Or am I a good girl?
I want sex. I want more sex than I'm getting. I'm ready to place an ad now or something. I never thought it would be so hard just to find somebody to fuck.
I feel like those people that write into advice columns saying I want to be with someone, I'm attractive, intelligent, blah, blah, blah, but I just can't meet someone.
My problem is I'm not looking for a relationship, I think I'm looking for Mr goodbar. I need to rent that movie. I think that might be me, but doesn't she die at the end? I don't want to die, I just want to get fucked.
I have a fuck-friend, supposedly, but he's not coming thru for me. Literally.
So I have to decide do I want to go out and try to meet someone like-minded, too busy for a real relationship, not wanting to go there, but ready to fuck. And what if he's married, or has a girlfriend, should I have principles about that?
I think once I finally got some dick again after so long without it that I don't want to go back to not having it again. I was like a virgin that didn't know what she was missing. Now I remember. Oh yeah, I like it, deep, hard, fast, inside. Yeah, that's what I want. My toy doesn't do it for me anymore. Even if it does vibrate.
Maybe I'm too picky. I don't feel picky. But maybe I need to broaden my choice of men I flirt with. And get out more.
I still fantasize but not as much. I think I'm ready for the real thing now.
Zoe